If no one knew

Secret Space Program Survivor

If you have ever read anything I have written before you can tell that I have lived a deep, passionate, and at times painful life. Ever the last couple of years a bit after I started writing here I’ve been having these peculiar memories, recalls, and emotions. All the while meeting other people who are experiencing exactly the same type of thing that I have been.

Most of my being would be better off for not talking about anything other than the ordinary. I know that I walk into dangerous territory. Especially having been a devoted Christian for many years, any drift from the doctrinal consensus naturally would be something that would attract scorn. It is this sort of thing that I will be discussing here.

I’ve always been a spiritual person. It is something that simply was me. Falling in love with Jesus was not that hard for me to do. No matter how far I got off track he was always there to love me and help lift me up. Call him a man, a spirit, a helper; I don’t care. What I know is that he is good and if we choose to walk with him he will teach us how to love, grow, and heal. For many years I followed him. For many years he picked me up and brushed me off when I was no longer walking shoulder to shoulder with him. This was all doable and allowable from a religious perspective. That was until the day that he said, ” You have walked alongside me all these years. It is time you take the lead for a while, to demonstrate what you have learned.” Here I have found myself at the threshold of going from a follower to a leader. This is right next door to the liquor store programming of Original Sin, Ordination, Subservance, and Self Flagulation.

The problem was that as much as I wanted to believe the fears cast onto me from other people. I became weary of being afraid.

What is to live if we are always afraid of where we will go when we die?

Tired of being afraid, I have become. Weary of it. After a while death becomes an escape better than fear.

Eventually, I had to accept that the world we live in and the memories I have had were enough of a hell to see. Some of the things I have seen are worse than anything I could imagine of hell. So how does any of these things make sense? Living in fear of going to hell, when as far as I was concerned I was already there. These were things that I could not deny, to do so is to not be the person Jesus taught me to be. He said, ” I am the way the truth and the light none come to the Father through me. ” I guess I took him literally when he said this. If I want to find Jesus I must follow the way. If I want to know him I must pursue truth. If I want to learn what life is I must search for life. This was the path I have taken, for better or worse.

This type of thinking regularly got monks permanently stationed in remote monasteries and it was this sort of thinking that led me to many places I was not expecting. Places that even I was hesitant to find.

A quick rewind to a few years ago.

I remember when working with my friend in the UK, I heard this voice come out of her one day laughing at me and saying, “You don’t understand! You don’t understand!” As much as I wanted to deny it the sad truth is that I did not. This encounter haunted me for years. It had me all but turn in my self-issued deliverance minister card. I went to the church and looked for others to come alongside me and there were none there. They couldn’t handle it or did not feel called to be of moral support. I can’t blame them. It is a lot of stuff to look at. This sort of stuff quickly erodes away our feelings of being safe in our nests. So, I put all this stuff on the side for a while. Alongside the death of Robert David Steele and Russ Dizdar and his Wife, there were a lot of questions that I had that remained unanswered. Sadly also some of my most loved mentors were gone.

Still, I would get these memories back. Memories that would bleed through. As if I have been living more than one life at a time. Memories of fighting in wars ages ago. Memories of being a military asset in outer space, including the planet of Mars. These are memories that I would brush off as “demonic” or make-believe. My response was to backfill these thoughts with being as good as a Christian as everyone else wanted me to be. For sure that is what God wants, Right!?

No. No… No, he doesn’t. If it were so how is it that we have gotten so far off track as a species?

The last few years I saw doctors poison their patients and pastors tell their congregations that it must be God’s plan their child died from heart trouble. He wants people to risk their lives to help exploited children. Rather the last few years people obediently laid down everything that gave them meaning; all for some imaginary, propagandized, and planned fear.

So I would argue that no God is not so worried about us toeing the line and obeying authority when doing that exact that has left us much wanting. The proverb of obeying our leaders, because God has placed them in authority over us, sadly has decimated us. It doesn’t matter what side our leaders have been on the last few years, they are all at fault.

Until you see that you will not be able to process the pain that you are unconsciously bearing, still waiting to be acknowledged.

Connecting with our emotional body is the only way we truly honor our own human spirit and dignity. This is something no medicine can do for you and in the process, the universe becomes bigger than you can ever imagine.

Have you ever swam in the ocean, the deeper you go, the more the pressure builds. The deeper you go into your beingness, the bigger the universe grows within you.

Remember how I talked about that voice mocking me from the mouth of an innocent victim telling me that I don’t understand. Well, I think I understand it a bit better now.

Reality Breakdown

We live in a multi-dimensional reality. This reality is contained within the mind of God or the Logos as an example and displayed in someone like Jesus Christ.

Just as the density of the ocean houses a varying form of life, so do the density transitions of other planes house life forms of different characteristics. Emotional vibrations are the anchor points that all beings rest upon. If you are a happy person your happiness will one day bring you happiness even if you may find it in a gutter. That we are less the person that we know ourselves to be and we are more so the characteristics we eminate. The primary emanation of our character manifests within our thought forms as an archetypal representation, at our core though we are simple beingness. We are observers of the phenomena that surround us, even those that arise from our minds.

So, If we look back at the bible and read it literally rather than metaphorically. It is not too difficult to at least consider that much of the Old Testament can be re-read as a sci-fi novel. Let us look at the Exodus out of Egypt. We got the Pillar by Day, Fire by Night, Mana from the Clouds, Splitting the Red Sea, and countless other examples of intervention that appeared to be extra worldly.

If we recontextualize most of the religions from the perspective of extraterrestrial interaction many of our differences begin to make sense. Nothing could be worse for nomadic civilizations than two rival ET groups setting them against each other in war. Even so much, so that today the book Revelations is being reverse-engineered before our eyes. So that we could possibly be driven to nuclear war and the survivors can claim a larger portion of the world for themselves. (Ok maybe Revelations is inevitable, still, there is no way to prove it any more than my perspective.)

This is why right now I am trying my best to put a stick in the spokes of this organized disaster so that humanity for the very first time in a really long time can actually be free. When looking around me at the leaders I am presented with. Who include those who have placed many unnecessary burdens on me and have also offered me no peace. I came to conclude that if these people are so bad, I can’t be any worse if I choose to lead in place of them.

I encourage you to do the same.

BreakDown Continued.

We are inter-planetary inter-stellar souls made from the thoughts of an infinite God who finds nothing but pleasure in his creation. Even for those of us who are of the less desirable sort, we are given ample opportunities to change. The question is if we will accept these opportunities when offered to us?

Our species on this Earth has been locked down and exploited by ET races for many many generations. Your Grandfather’s Grandfather and Grandmother were just as much under this plite as you are now. If you go to ancient cultures all over the world. You will see cave paintings, rock art, and pottery with horned humanoids. As well as accounts of ancient people talking of gods coming from the sky and having children with the daughters of men. The Book of Enoch speaks of the “Angels” coming down to Earth and teaching men many things. The same book of Enoch was found in the Dead Sea Scrolls written 50 years after Jesus’ Ministry and is still only seen as Scripture by the Ethiopian Orthodox.

This is in comparison to the 4 Gospels primarily coming from one singular Q Source which was written in the “Spirit of the Disciples” approx 150 years after the resurrection of Jesus. I’m not making an argument that one group of books is more valuable than the other. I would argue that they are of equal value in a time such as this.

A self-interested and AI-infected ET race has enslaved humanity for a very long time. These self-interested ET races have had many wars throughout history in the quest to control and dominate the evolutionary trajectory of our species on this planet for their benefit. Similarly, as Gregor Mendel tended to his peas, these ETs tend to their crop of humans for no other reason than their economic, scientific, and “spiritual” gain.

This is a loose consortium of both Terrans or People and the negative extradimensional ETs with whom they are aligned.

So what are we up against?

One thing I do know from my memories. Is that they do bleed. They are strong and they can be killed. You must exert yourself and your divine rights through the use of your will, spiritual empowerment, and discerning wisdom. We can overcome this with the help of the all observant awareness of the creator that resides within us. Because we can overcome our adversaries our goal should be to secure the Sol Solar System as a peaceful region for the inhabitation of Terran Earth Citizens alongside other peaceful races.

This will be an ongoing effort that unfolds over many years. There will continue to be extended disclosure (you are the disclosure) and in the following shift of paradigm acceptance, the human race (i.e. your grandchildren) will in time and maturity be able to colonize distant planets and stars. These locations will be made available to colonization by allied ET races and benevolent highly sentient beings when we reach the maturity and mutually beneficial relationships required to grant such access.

I’m sure this is a lot to take in. It is easier for some more so than others. For those of us with a Christian background, it has its difficulties. I am 40 years old, my ancestors killed each other in Bavaria for a hundred years fighting over what was the correct Christianity.

My blood is tired, it is time to stop the fighting. In my view, Jesus was profound and undoubtedly showed us how to be the type of people who deserved to visit the mansions in our Father’s kingdom. I sure as hell am much happier in a universe with Jesus (wherever he may be) than in any universe where he never lived.